Well… I was nearly there and I blew it, all for the sake of an extremely delicious dessert. Clearly my 30 days is up. I apologize for not posting for the past 5 days, but things have been a bit hectic. This actually happened last Thursday, 5 days away from my 30-day goal! I could have said no. I could have maintained self control, but I just REALLY wanted it….
By “it,” I mean the biggest piece of chocolate cake you’ve ever seen! I went out to eat with 6 co-workers last week and we ordered the Great Wall of Chocolate at PF Chang’s (I’ll admit, at my recommendation). This cake is 6 layers of moist, chocolate cake with chocolate icing in between each layer, topped with tiny chocolate chips, hot caramel sauce, and fresh fruit. Is your mouth watering yet? EXACTLY!
I can’t blame it on anyone else since I suggested ordering it and my good friend Brandon did his best to keep me from eating any, but I did it anyway, and I did it willingly (thanks for trying, Brandon). I feel a little guilty now, but I guess I’ll go ahead and admit that a couple of weeks into this “experiment,” I had already decided that I wasn’t going to remain 100% vegan. For one, I think it’s nearly impossible. Of course, I could do my best and forget the small stuff, but I think that if I make the vegan lifestyle seem hard or tedious or like I’m missing out, others will see my struggle and form a bad opinion of the whole lifestyle. Again, this is a form of excuse I’m making for myself to justify having a little dairy here and there, but there is some truth to it as well, I think.
I am going to make it a point to limit the amount of dairy products that I consume even more so than before, probably to the extent that most anyone would categorize me as vegan. The butter, milk, and coffee creamer that I buy are always vegan. The occasional cup of yogurt and cheese are more frequent, but I hardly ever buy eggs (maybe a half-dozen carton 3 times a year). I am probably already around 80-90% vegan and I will work to increase that percentage, but if I want to share a slice of cake at a restaurant with friends, I’m not going to deprive myself or beat myself up for doing so.
In my defense (another excuse, I suppose), I’ve heard even the most diligent of vegans say that they occasionally do the same thing. I don’t want to portray the vegan lifestyle as one of deprivation, but I do want to keep the cruelty of the dairy industry at the forefront of my mind and make vegan choices most of the time. I also want to make it a point to show others vegan alternatives to their favorite foods.
I’m also going to go ahead and maintain this blog under the same name, the main reason being that changing the name would mean changing the URL. I’ll continue to post my thoughts on vegan-related topics and will post recipes often. I hope that you will subscribe and leave feedback. I’d like to know your thoughts on the topics I discuss and I’d also like to know which recipes you like, what substitutions you tried, what didn’t work for you, etc. Your feedback will help me decide what recipes will go into my first cookbook.
Your friend, the 98% vegan,